Saturday, May 29, 2010

More #FF to follow

Then there is @ninadobrev @CandiceAccola @KatGraham @IanSomerhalder or some from #VampireDiaries all incredible in their own way, of course my heart belongs to @ninadobrev. Nuff said bout that, haha.

Some from the Make it or break it crew or #MIOBI as it is hashtagged on @twitter: @CassieScerbo @ChelseaHobbs and ms @josloren if I had to choose, don't think I could name my fav from those 3, just amazingly cool chicks.

@marily2500 she always someone for you to help promote or follow, but it is rare that they are not worth checking out and following, plus she helps you get followers.

Oh my girl @BobbiBillard since she is the one who turned me onto blogging, w/o her none of this is possible, and she is just a down to earth supermodel who I really and truly enjoy!!!

Two ladies that will keep you all guessing in a good way, of what trouble or fun, depending on how you see it, is ms. @ambermeade and @Sarah_Michaels they combine to be a deadly combination of fun and "how did they manage that?!?" in all they do,haha

A young woman to follow, not overly well-known, yet...she is just an incredible singer, started out doing covers and now sings with Justin Timberlake. So go follow: @esmeeworld she will knock ur sox off with her passion and ability to sing her lil heart out!!!

Some of my my #FF

Just a partial list and some reasons why I follow/followed by these people. This is not a completed list, as usual sure I will miss someone, not intentionally.
My first follow is @adventuregirl she is one of my oldest follows/followers. Plus she is just darn cool. Tweets from all over, wherever she happens to be at the moment tweeting out helpful tips for travel,life and everything in-between. All the first follows have been following/me following for awhile.

@CarinaK an amazingly talented singer out of Miami, though she ends up in CA all the time too, beautiful, charming and a fast-rising talent. Expect she will be a natinal, then worldwide talent before too long, yet incredibly down to earth in who she is.

@ChantellePaige been with her since #myspace days, where to start?!? Well she is another one of those fast-rising musical talents who is warm and kind in her tweets, much more to her than just music, so go follow, catch her blog and see the woman she is.

@NorCalChika she is impossibly beautiful, musically diverse, does some DJ'ing and is really funny in her tweets. Loves her jager, but loves life even more. Brings a smile everytime I see her on #twitter.

@ItsKimMartin both she and @g0tbliss are great women, two friends who share a small pic into their lives with their tweets, they are another pair, who are more than their professions and obvious passions.

@Kristinia Kristinia DeBarge probably could have rested on her musical-legendary family name and done alright for herself, but she challenges herself musically, as well as her fans through her songs and videos.

@Gavin_DeGraw He is easily one of my favorite singers, just touches my cold-heart (kidding bout the cold-heart) with his songs of life, that reach out of his own experiences.

@bep hey it's the Black-Eyed Peas just a funny group that has an amazing gift to produce songs that reach across people groups, age ranges and life in general to be hit after hit.

@DaveMatthewsBnd alongside with Van Halen they remain as all-time favs, people hate on Dave cause he produces hits and has his own viewpoint that won't be silent or match-up with people's desires.

So this is part one of hmmm....however long it takes to "git er done"

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Are you close to your family?!?

That was the question posed to me by a complete, well not complete, but pretty much a stranger, last night. I was at a loss of how to answer this particular question, it would have been a simply a yes, as recently as a couple of weeks ago. But life and circumstances have changed and not for the better. It started out innocently enough, a saturday and my sister calling my cell and leaving a message that she and the fam might come down to my place of work to see me. Which would be all well and dandy, if I was still employeed there, which I wasn't, but hadn't had the heart to tell them yet. So next message I get is that my sister had gone ahead and gone to my old work place and asked for me and they said he doesn't work here. So she promptly called my dad who left a bunch of messages and emails.
This is where it gets tricky, since my sister didn't mean to "bust" me on not telling them I wasn't working there anymore, but she has done this before, "innocently" checking up on me. So I haven't talked to any memeber of my family for over 2 weeks, and currently have intention of ever talking to them again. Think it will be best for all concerned.
So, to answer the guy who out of the goodness of his heart stopped and picked me up to help stop me from walking all the way to find somewhere to sleep which was bout 2 1/2 miles away after I had already walked 3 miles was nice. But hard to answer w/o getting into details I wasn't comfortable sharing with a virtual stranger. This blog unfortunately has been a more poor me, life is tough, then I meant it to be and for that I apologize. oh if you hadn't seen it I pretty much blog the same way I talk, so as you read it, if u read it outloud, this is how I talk,haha. Pretty neat,huh?!?
Again, I find myself drifting back to two songs that are floating around in my head: T.I. "Live Your Life." And "I Want To Know What Love Is" by Foreigner. Next time I do karaoke I will do "I Want..." for sure, Lou Gramm style of the later years, kinda gospelly and raspy,haha. "I want you to show me, I want to feel what love is" And with that I'm out...

Lessons to learn the easy way

I call this lessons to learn the easy way as opposed to getting the opportunity to learn them the hard way. The hard way is going to hurt both physically mentally and emotionally. On that you can almost be certain.
1) Life is unfair, never assume otherwise, it will be easier for some around you, those who get by on looks, by cheating, through their connections...whatever. Still expect this and anticipate the fact. This knowledge will keep you pressing on despite the desire, the overwhelming desire to complain, whine or whatever else there is to do, except for the task at hand. But in those times that you want to do something else or give up, DON'T!!! This is the time to push forward even harder and show that you are made of tough stuff, not prone to crying and giving up, just because things haven't gone as you planned them.
2) Keep up a good working relationship with all those around you. Let me unpack this one for you. By this I mean, develop the relationships that God puts in front of you, all of them, not just the one's that seem easy or the people you have the most in common with. I say this, for the reason that you never know who's help you may need in the future and those you may have alot in common with right now, may be nothing like you in the future.
3) While there are no true guarantees in his world, hard work and perseverance usually pays off in you achieving your goals, so set your goals high and then start striving for them. If you find that you cannot achieve this goal for a reasonable reason, then don't be afraid to sit down, consider if your passion is still leading you in the direction you are currently going or if there is a new direction you are being called towards.
4) Being afraid when you are doing something new or getting ready to do something new is normal. But don't allow that fear to paralyze you and cause you to miss out on the experience. There are countless great examples both current and in our glorious past of people overcoming the fear and achieving greatness, do not be afraid to follow in their footsteps.

This will a multi-part series of blogs I can tell, cause sure I will think of more lessons to learn easy way.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Why I'm obsessing on Boston's song "I Need Your Love"

My blog is on...wait for it...wait for it... the rock band, hard rock, progressive rock, this is how wikipedia described them: Boston. And their song "I Need Your Love." Now if you have been with me since early yesterday 5/17/2010, you noticed I started chatting non-stop about this song and group. Probably to the point, you all were like alright SHUT UP about Boston and their wonderful song: "I Need Your Love" already!!!
I think possibly I'm obsessing on it, since it takes me back a more stable less frentic less rushed time in my life. Kinda comfort song for the soul, as it were. The song is a sad song of goodbye to a girl that a guy is realizing is gone. But the music is complex and beautifully placed. A challenge to keep up with. The song is a relative newer one, compared to the one's I know from 70's and 80's, but is in same vein that put Boston on the map alongside Aerosmith.
"I Need Your Love. I want you everyway. I need your love. Can't help this feeling coming back everyday." See just a classic chorus that will have you singing along!!!
I am hoping this song will knock me out of my current funk and help me get my rear in gear. A recharged optimism as it were. Funny how a song takes on a life of it's own to each one of the listeners, and how it might be different for them each time they listen. What a power musicians have and responsibility.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Life is a funny thing...

Maybe it's a continued thought of last blog on being homeless and hopeless, or maybe it's an off-shoot going somewhere else entirely. I know at least part of this goes to the homeless section of my blog. That is the circular trap I'm in at the present moment. No job = no place to stay = no feelings of stability. I feel stuck in this, possibly due to the fact my rheumatoid arthritis causes me to wear down even more and sleeping on bus stop benches probably isn't conducive to a goodnight's rest either.
A person who is homeless well three of them rather, attempted to jump me and take my money and backpack. I simply said, boy did you three idiots go after the wrong person, a guy with no future, no job, no place to stay. In essence, nothing to lose. They walked away and left me to my thoughts, dark and gloom-filled as they were.
Let me set the record straight, I'm not suicidal or anything, but lack a purpose or reason to go on living. So if I were to die, it would be ok. This makes me a bad person, sometimes the most deadly to mess with, for a person with nothing to lose will do whatever it takes or cost to beat the other person. And they will go after their enemy with a ferocity that cannot be rivaled.
That being said, I am struggling with idea of God watching over me and protecting me and just allowing me to suffer on the street. So, I vacillate between belief in God and a pure belief in myself and that I'm the only person who is going to look after me. Equally, probably will cut off communications with the rest of the family for good. Just seems like nothing good will ultimately come of my staying a part of the family. In process of deciding if moving away, getting new SS number and DL would help me disappear for good as far as family is concerned.
I think I'm probably just rambling now, but have learned that life is hard and anyone saying different has forgot true life or never lived it.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Homeless and hopeless in Houston

Well decided to do this blog, ever so reluctantly, while walking out of the downtown area in Houston. Why was I walking and not riding in car or bus, you ask? No money to do either. So I was walking up to an area that is less frequented by homeless and less likely to disturb me or whatever. I don't have a job,no place to stay and feeling of hopelessness is there, but still I press on, for the fellow followers of Christ, they say it's God's strength carrying me, but I say different. It is my strength carrying me along. Having gone hungry for last 4 days I see no sign of God in the equation at all. He seems to have deserted me, which upon reflection, is fine by me.

I write this blog, kind of as a last will and testament, since death is inevitable with me having rheumatoid arthritis thus weakening the immune system, further without food and limited access to water, death seems to be coming sooner rather than later. Which is equally fine.

Have I accomplished all I have set out to do? No, but no one ever does and what I have done, I have done well. Made an impact in lives beyond my own. And really that is all we can ask for.

Remember we are only given one life, possibly with several do-overs, by that I mean second chances, not re-incarnation. Use the life that you are given, don't let it use you. "What we do in life echoes in eternity"

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Glee part 2,hmmm

Watched Glee last night, have kind of fallen in love with the show, and @msleamichele and @alittlelamb (Dianna Agron) two absolutely stunning beauties. Think that Lea Michele has the most pure and incredible voice I have heard in a long time. Just mesmorizes me, everytime I hear it. Listening to "Don't Stop Believing" by the cast of Glee, just a great new version, that will probably be as iconic as the original is and was.

I enjoy the show, or continue to enjoy it, because of the complexities of the show, singing and dancing one moment and discussing the reason for being unpopular the next, without missing a beat. I don't think that there are alot of actors that can do what these young people do, week in and week out. It's the whole acting thing, that alot of actors struggle with and then you throw the dancing and singing in on top of it,wow!!!

The show gets my vote for best new and best show on TV right now, know alot will disagree, but with all they do on the show, it keeps it fresh and unpredictable and new for new fans to enjoy. Their version of "Don't Stop Believing" and "Ice Ice Baby" revive the songs and make them completely relevant once again. So rock on Glee, I will continue watching!!!